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What My Silence Wants To Say!









What my Silence 

            wants to Say!





What can I say to the ONLY Man that I have given 100% of M3 to?
I wonder if you miss me, if you think about me as much as I think about you. I wonder if you play over and over in your mind,
the day we held each other and said DIVORCE is not an OPTION So we’ll be ok, we’ll be just fine.

But we are here in this place…
how did we get here into this space…?


Why couldn’t you stick up for me… why did you lie on me… 
why couldn’t you talk to me, 
why couldn’t you be true… Why couldn’t you Love me, I mean LOVE ME for real.
Was it because you just didn’t love you?

 Did you ever love me; did you ever mean anything you said.
What happened to your love that caused me to be in a bitter nonSpirtual web?
You are just full of Lies and deceit and a life without GOD.
Was my pushing you to love him what made you slip and fall?
And how could you let people hurt me, how could you be so selfish as to ONLY Protect yourself.
I miss you but I am disgusted in you and Truth that you seem to NOT tell yourself.


Devastated, in the you that is not mature enough to have prayed for me,
Devastated, in the you that was not strong enough to fight for me,
Devastated, in the you that was too weak to believe in a US!
So with ALL those lies you told that pushed us out….


Which one was the truth about loving us without a shadow of a doubt? Which one was true about wanting me…
Which one was true about what GOD said about Me, about US!
Or was that another lie you told not to hear me make a fuss.

DO you even know what Truth Is?
The TRUTH is that I have Always put you before myself
The TRUTH is that You have been one of my Favorite Gifts
The TRUTH is that You will never find another Me.
The TRUTH is that this is hard without you but
harder because I don’t know if you ever really Loved me.

 

I want to protect you as I always have but it’s so sad that your back is what you said I never had.
I want to talk to you but I’m now afraid that every word I say will go unheard or my words spoken to you in secret will be repeated by others that I haven’t even whispered to.


How could you not Love the one, that was SO IN LOVE with you, Flaws & All?
Why wasn’t I enough for you to FIGHT YOU to give me the BEST YOU because to me you were worth it all.



Now we're in this place, this space and nothing will never be the same….  I wonder if you care…

if You’ll ever really… CHANGE!

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