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How Did I Get To This Place

How Did I Get To This Place?



I was wondering how did I get to this place? 

This place where there is no he, no me....   NO We!



We told each other that there will never be another because all we wanted was each other. As best friends, husband and wife and as lovers.



He was my SupaMann, my BamBam, my Happily Ever After.

My customized Gift from God that was just for me, my Smile wrapped in my Laughter.


But then the day came that TRUTH would jostle us around, move us about and kick one of us to the curb because conforming to ways that weren’t GOD was NOT what our lives were destined to be about. He didn’t see that the division crept in unaware and that’s when our fight together was now against each other.



Blows of discord, division and disrespect. Lies & manipulation was a part of this segregation. Now there is no hesitation in this divorce that we seem to be facing… Knowing that God isn’t pleased with that but how can I fight alone… when ONLY God has my back!



He offered me broken dreams from his broken past.. not understanding that I never lived there, and that wasn’t a part of my path. I just wanted the him that he didn’t believe in, the him that I saw when I fell for him flaws & all. The him that I knew he really wanted to be but couldn’t because he didn’t have the tools of Love unconditionally.



You see I never really judged him because of his past because it seemed like that’s where he was stuck because that’s all he ever had. But I poured my life into him because I believed in Us, I would do it all over again even with his lack of trust. Not just for me but for those who hurt him, degraded him, manipulated him with their twisted thoughts of love for him.



He’s a good man with broken parts… 

but Truth be told… he’s too Prideful to let God control the inward parts that begin with His Heart!



 To God be the Glory may HE be Glorified through my Story… 

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